Wednesday, 30 July 2025

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I am with you, walking, 
And we check the day's step count. 
We are weaving in the woods,
braiding together paths
of past and future. 
Criss-cross trails unfolding
In the midst of wildflowered green. 
We are turning corners
Finding not fairies but
ourselves, in familiar places.
It somehow surprises you that
Our dogs are instant best buds.
I'd been certain of that but am
Less sure where we parked the car.
I confidently lead us three times over the same bridge.  
We are blessed by a dragonfly,
Enquiring how? Why
This pair would double back,
Reflect so uncertainly in the water. 
How tentatively they seek a path.
At times, we are quiet and that's fine.
Knowing we can be quiet together
Feels something like coming home. 
Here and there, we let go of little regrets,
Releasing them to the wood, 
Or watch them bob away on the brook. 
The weight of us disperses
Into a canopy of leafy sunlight. 
I begin to know the colour of your bruises
You learn to distrust my sense of direction. 

Step count. 
Now, we're walking to a bar
to drink some gin, feet in-sync.
Twenty-five years is a long time
to not walk with somebody
And yet, you occupy
a particular space beside me
that perhaps was always yours.
You are wearing silver rings on your fingers
And I can see so much time etched into them
The wear and tear of a life I don't know.
But they're the same silver rings I used to love,
And each ellipse in the silver
Slips something like a hook into me.
I think to feel those rings between my fingers
Would be familiar 
As the sight of them on yours.
We walk, your side-eye saying
Things your tongue will not. 
The unspoken puzzle
Around which you close yourself 
Like a bat. 
Sometimes, we're quiet.
And that's fine.

Tracing steps,
We begin to show each other
where our feet have taken us.
You have walked through
marriage and motherhood.
Along an artery of life and loss
I can't quite comprehend, here,
Fixed by the rings on your fingers,
Spooked by the magic of silver.
I'm stuttering, plodding along
With not being a father.
With not being so many things.
With treading repeating circles.
And yet, as I stir your words
into my Tanqueray, and
sip at the story of you,
It tastes like a tonic. 
It's not the complex mingling
of love, loss and resentment
I might once have expected.
Instead, it's a deep and clear draught
Of the girl I knew,
And all I am 
- All I am -
Is so very proud of you.
Of the woman you've become,
Of the good and bad you've borne
While wearing those same silver rings.
Which are no less precious to me with time.

I am counting the steps
Between our last milestone and this, 
As we mosey over an old blue bridge. 
Not yet gone far but already
Lifted from the discord of traffic.
You are free to go anywhere
With or without me, yet
You're here with smiling eyes,
That summon a molten silver, 
billowing ocean bloom in my body;
An unfathomable desire
To get to the other side of something with you and nothing else
Nothing but your rings between my fingers
And freedom from the past. 
Our toes sink into the green verges of each other.
Let the dragonflies watch with envy. 


 


Monday, 23 June 2025

Somewhere, Once



I'm fuzzy on facts and places.
Memory, for me, misplaces
People's names and faces.

My mind is loosey-goosey,
Non-stick specifics are lost
In the juicy flavour-feels.

Like when

On the street, you remark on a hi-viz guy
Says I, with a shrug, 
-He's workin for the council.
Beneath the many turning galaxies,
We're unanimous in grinning, 
-Has been twenty years!

Perhaps you and I had a destination,
There was probably traffic.
I forget everything
But the stars in my bones.


 





Wednesday, 30 April 2025

You've Crafted a Real Gem Here.

 

Day Two



Thank you for reading and commenting
Life happened so hard, but
Who cares over a glass of beer or two?
I need awe on a daily basis to survive.
I have kept a note of this gorgeous carving;
May it be its own reward when needed.
I can't like it due to problems but I like it!
The title is just chef's kiss perfect. 

I feel this to my bones, love
the idea of collecting stones
And souls. This looks like my life!
I like that you mentioned
The necessity of drought
Cleaning the ocean of pirates.
This is magical, God
I am stumped by your art. 

Lovely lovely lovely lovely.
Insanely kind of you to say!
To be witness to the madness,
Captured by the moon-shaped guitar,
Whose rhyme just clicks into place.
I'm not sure what romp means even 
Though you went deeply into sensuality
And might not have been a person at all
But boy you said it well – and in new ways.
Lovely dog photo too! 

Your poems instantly brought back the world
Your beautiful, concrete poems.
It's watermelon season and
We evoked the sound of the cuckoo.
Your comments made me sit a little bit taller.
I hope you had coffee and crumpet.
This made me smile, to know
That my words landed for you.
Consciousness stirs in the presence of a good spice.







Love in Dire Straits


Day Thirty


Backseat midnight car to Cornwall,

Romeo to Juliet lays out 

Just that the time was wrong.

Devouring midnight down the years,

I never quite got my timing right.

A friend never had this education.

No wonder he's getting divorced;

He never learned how to fall in love.





Tuesday, 29 April 2025

Janis Joplin as a Fish Swimming in Gasoline

 

Day Twenty-Nine



Seems like you were always leaving
Or left. Leaving with 
Your roaring engine voice.
Left in the split
Of your fire-cracked glacier voice.
Fleeing the Texan woman's life 
At your throat.
Left-field, gone big in The City
Singing in colours the let me be
Purple plea of the wounded.
Seducer of tied-off fuses
With no match left unlit
By your spilt whiskey voice. 
Leaving behind the foreboding, 
Real-known moment,
Of needing to swim in gasoline
When you couldn't quit lighting matches. 
Left lonely by lovers, with
Only what was left in the wake
Of your Russian roulette voice;
Your Pollock-paint life
Of daring too much
To be too different.
Leaving us at twenty-seven
With only your brass rocket voice.







Monday, 28 April 2025

Happy Birthday


Day Twenty-Eight


"Show my head to the people, it is worth seeing."

- Georges Jacques Danton, French revolutionary 


 

My family song waxes long

as I am in the tooth. 

I might die

in the duration of the dirge,

the drawn-out vowels 

like dragged-out bowels;

a most prolonged execution.

Light a candle for our

huddled, gut-pulled parlance.

Let us groan in dissonance.

How I long

for one swift stroke of a song

A get-it-over-with, choppy song

A flash of the axe and a slice

of cake.




 

Sunday, 27 April 2025

Rethinking a Niger Fisherman

 

Day Twenty-Seven

Manchester Art Gallery's exhibition Rethinking the Grand Tour reassesses art of the British Empire. The subject of my poem, A Niger Fisherman, can be seen on this page.



I almost wish the curator's note gone,
framing this apricot syrup sun as
pulp, squeezed through a fist;
The fishermen lit like fantasy;
Marketed beauty for turning heads 
Empire-conscious.

I stand pale
with the undepicted details.
My skin, prickled
Empire-conscious.

If I took this little rethinking card,
silenced it in my pocket,
marker-penned out the unseem'd
legacy line of Empire Marketing Board,
might it quiet this discomfort?

The sun, laid unsickly on the river.
The river, not bleeding the sun.
The mangrove, wading the river
uncurated. Unmolested.
The fisherman's net, swung
more free beneath the mangrove.

 







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I am with you, walking,  And we check the day's step count.  We are weaving in the woods, braiding together paths of past and future.  C...