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Day Seven

Frozen peas, dungarees

Tuna steak and dill.

Cheddar cheese, antifreeze,

Pepper in a mill.

Margarine, dopamine

Sharper kitchen knife.

Nicotine, propylene,

Where's the bag for life.

Mischievous not Mischievious

 

Day Five

Mischievious, mischievious,

Am I just too serious,

Punctilious and fastidious?

It's grieviously hidious

Mischievious, it's devious

Invideous and incidious.

No matter how insistuous

I am with supaciliousness,

It's used no less than preveious.

I wish I was amfibious.

 

Armchair

 

Day Two

A moon buggy made in silence.

I must quietly scrape-scrape

through loud Lego bricks

for that teeny-tiny

second red headlight.

I don't ever think of asking for help.

The old armchair has a hold

on Dad; he's watching The Six O'Clock News.

He'll get mad if he can't hear

about Nelson Mandela's birthday party.

The News

 

Day One

Huey Lewis and The News

Are world-famous birdwatchers.

The News (lucky!) spots

A Brambling on the feeder.

Oh, Huey! Oh, where were you?

 

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I am with you, walking, 

And we check the day's step count. 

We are weaving in the woods,

braiding together paths

of past and future. 

Criss-cross trails unfolding

Amidst the green of a late spring. 

We are turning corners

Finding not fairies but

ourselves, in familiar places.

It somehow surprises you that

Our dogs are instant best buds.

I'd been certain of that but am

Less sure where we parked the car.

        I confidently lead us three times over the same bridge.

We are blessed by a dragonfly,

Enquiring how - or why -

This pair would double back,

Reflecting in the uncertain water. 

        How tentatively they navigate each other.

At times, we are quiet and that's fine.

Knowing we can be quiet together

Feels something like coming home. 

Here and there, we let go of little regrets,

Release them to the wood, 

Or watch them bob away on the brook. 

The weight of us disperses

Into a canopy of leafy sunlight. 

I begin to know the colour of your bruises

        You learn to distrust my sense of direction. 

Step count.

Now, we're walking to a bar

to drink some gin, feet in-sync.

Twenty-five years is a long time

to not walk with somebody

And yet, you occupy

a particular space beside me

that perhaps was always yours.

You are wearing silver rings on your fingers,

Their surface etched with so much time.

The wear and tear of a life I do not know.

But they're the same silver rings I used to love,

And each ellipse in the silver slips

something like a hook into me.

I think to feel those rings between my fingers

Would be familiar 

As the sight of them on yours.

We walk. Your steps say

Things your tongue will not. 

The unspoken puzzle

Around which you close yourself 

Like a bat.

Sometimes, we're quiet.

And that's fine.

Tracing steps,

We begin to show each other

where our feet have taken us.

You have walked through

marriage and motherhood.

Along an artery of life and loss

I can't quite comprehend, here,

Fixed by the rings on your fingers,

Spooked by the magic of silver.

I'm stuttering, plodding along

With not being a father.

With not being so many things.

With treading repeating circles.

And yet, as I stir your words

into my Tanqueray, and

sip at the story of you,

        It tastes like a tonic.

It's not the muddling mix

of love, loss and resentment

I might once have expected.

Instead, it's a deep and clear draught

Of the brilliant girl I knew,

And all I am 

- All I am -

Is so very proud of you.

Of the woman you've become,

Of the good and bad you've borne

While wearing those same silver rings.

Which are no less precious to me with time.

I am counting the steps

Between our last milestone and this, 

As we mosey over a high blue bridge. 

Not yet gone far but somehow

Lifted from the discord of life's traffic.

You are free to go anywhere

With or without me, yet

You're beside me with the smiling eyes

that summon a molten silver, 

billowing ocean bloom in my body;

An unfathomable desire

To get to the other side of something

with you and nothing else

Nothing but your rings between my fingers

And freedom from the past. 

Our toes sink into the green verges of each other.

Let the dragonflies watch with envy.