Thursday, 17 April 2025

Anna

Day Seventeen



Hadn't seen you since I fell off my dinosaur
Was full of sadghetti and you owed me zilch
but turned up, dog and smile in-tow
rosy like I remembered.
Skadoodled 'round the park, pretendin'
you were walkin' the dog
not walkin' me.

Had this way of sayin' you were okay
without me feelin' sore about it.
You, proud of your lads.
Me, wonderin' how to say sorry
for bumpin' ugly in a drunk front room
for walkin' away at the school gates.

Every so often, you'd shoot me a nudge;
nothin' special, 'cept everythin' I needed.
One time, I took too long to work thumbs
and in the meanwhile you dropped dead.

Scrollin' up, checkin'
blue ticks rubber stampin'
Thanks for being so nice.
Pitiful, really, but
at least there was that
At least there was that. 

Was thinkin' 'bout your sons,
'bout your other half doin' CPR in the kitchen,
but really I was thinkin' o' me, thinkin' -
No. I was only just startin' to feel
I was worth a nudge.
Worth a walk in the park.

Was first time hearin' a eulogy
I caught every shiny bubble blown,
knowin' each to be so godawful true.
And everyone packin' out the chapel -
did you save all their lives, too?
Was standin', wouldn't fit-in, 
lookin' in thru the ghastly glass.
Just standin' with my grief in the glass.
Thinkin' 'bout still standin'.





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