Today's prompt was a lengthy and complicated process, with a set of instructions to follow. The end result could probably do with some major editing and tweaking, but I'm
reasonably happy. I think it could be alright with a bit of work but here it is, warts-and-all:
Au revoir
A
handful of glances becomes an uncomfortable stare
and
he is so sorry, he begs your pardon
but
he cannot take his eyes off the girl in the clouds
for
fear she might fuse into the atmosphere
He
has seen loss and it looks like a hole in the dirt
hard
to exhume and harder to fill with a broken back.
When
you come down, I will never feel or love again.
and
it will surely please you when I bite my pillow
every
night. We will each ask no questions and tell no lies.
It
can't be a coincidence it rained the day you left me. Well,
maybe
it didn't rain but the sky seemed low and saturated
with
the muggy, liquid sunshine of regret.
Every morning that bird shrugs at me through circled glass
mumbling don't look at me, I've no idea either
and when
you waved goodbye, I might have said well,
I
go to the foot of my grandfather's stairs
because
I think it was the right moment, but
in the event I said nothing and you said nothing.
I
forgot to tell you about the time years ago when
I
heard that awful woman shriek carpe diem! at a child
in
Matalan of all places, and only you would understand
quite
how strange that was. Too late to wish you were there.
The
words falling from your mouth tasted bitter and sickly
because
they had the shameful, piercing ring of truth
and
if I felt your fingers it was only the touch of madness
that
fogs things up and makes me reel like a thoughtless child
plummeting,
head-first, to the wrong conclusion.
and if I prostrate myself, or become Brutus it
is only because
I see you deified by children, adventuring souls whom
I might be
moved to love and never speak of it
and
if I said I breathed-in the pages of my old book
to
detect a trace of you, would you take me literally
or
simply understand that I miss you, that's all.
If
your sadness is a grey, troubled pond in a squall
then
I am the pitiful fish caught in its undercurrent
You
can only do so much laissez-faire thinking.
I
am utterly convinced that you are probably not
several
different people with different voices and
thoughts
and feelings, working irregular shift patterns
but
if I called you a doyle you wouldn't understand
anyway.
I am a parasite, sucking scanty joy from your veins
and wondering why I'm starving and you are lifeless.
After
a once upon there was a long emptiness
because
she left me in no man's land, a sort-of
lonely
buffer zone with checkpoints and guardposts
and
I didn't even realise 'til you knocked the wall down
so
I will soak up the inevitable deluge and
wait
until your thoughts break through the clouds again.